Memories of my head....
Feb. 3rd, 2012 08:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
It hurts, every time I close my eyes. It hurts, the sadness, the pain, the intangible figure that calls my name, each night, ever night. And yet, I sleep none-the-less, each night, every night, despite what waits for me in my dreams. Despite the pain, I still return there.
I am drawn to the pain like a moth to a flame, perhaps. It hurts, but the light is sickeningly sweet, a false promise of salvation. So I sleep, and I wake each day feeling worse than the before.
But I smile, because that is what I feel is right. That is what I know is right.
I don't know why. And...I'm starting to wonder...
If it would even be worth it anymore to ask.
I am drawn to the pain like a moth to a flame, perhaps. It hurts, but the light is sickeningly sweet, a false promise of salvation. So I sleep, and I wake each day feeling worse than the before.
But I smile, because that is what I feel is right. That is what I know is right.
I don't know why. And...I'm starting to wonder...
If it would even be worth it anymore to ask.